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i finally put some new writing up. a poem--yeeessssssssss, a poem! (that was supposed to sound sininster, but it didn't, did it.) anyway while looking through an old notebook for some ideas for NaNoWriMo (i am officially in it! i even put a little icon for it on killingjar.org! go look!), i came across this--poem--i wrote a long time ago, which seemed fitting, seeing as today is halloween. go look, you'll see.

and, happy halloweeny everyone!

i just cannot get my head around working today. really. i've done about 3 minutes' worth of it all day. and it's 2.15pm already.

America 24/7. a photo essay that brought me to tears. first thing in the morning. it's one of those kinds of days.

i have such a crush on Peter Cincotti. sigh.

to borrow a headline from the bitter shack of resentment, God to Mel Gibson: Shut Up. heh.

CNN.com - Lightning strikes Gibson's 'Christ': "ROME, Italy -- Actor Jim Caviezel, who plays Jesus in Mel Gibson's controversial film 'The Passion of Christ' was struck by lightning during shooting."

Law requires prompt call to 911 from group homes

"Gov. James E. McGreevey yesterday signed a bill into law requiring caretakers of people with developmental disabilities or traumatic brain injury to call 911 for life-threatening emergencies involving the patients.
'Danielle's Law,' as the legislation is known, is named for 32-year-old Danielle Gruskowski, who died Nov. 5 while under care of an Edison group home..."

(note that the group home agency mentioned in this article is NOT the one i work for.)

i have a lot to say about this bill, but i don't think it would be proper of me to say it all publicly, considering that i work in the field. i'll just say that sometimes well-meaning people do things that make it hard for other well-meaning people to do things well.

if you want to know my actual, fact-based opinion, just ask.

i so cannot concentrate today.

i was rolling along being ok with how things have been going. then today, all of a sudden, life kind of sucks again. does that mean it's sucked all along, and i've just been oblivious?

i'm thinking a lot today about friends i used to have, and i'm finding that i can't remember some of their last names. and these were friends from just--6 years ago or so. so on top of missing my life of 6 years ago, i now feel totally lame. my brain just isn't what it used to be.

i am having one of those days today. where something just feels very, very wrong. i think i know why this is. if you ask me, i'll probably tell you. otherwise it's not important to post here.

MSN Entertainment - News - ABC News Declares Oswald Acted Alone.

also that he really, really hated jelly doughnuts...

i don't know. i just like the conspiracy theories. i'm not ready to accept the lone gunman idea.

another installment in my God Bless America Series: "A man labeled 'abnormally obsessed' with Britney Spears and who was ordered by a court on Oct. 7 to stay at least 300 yards away from her for three years has now sued the pop starlet for 'extreme emotional distress.' Masahiko Shizawa, a 43-year-old Japanese businessman, claims in a lawsuit filed Thursday in Los Angeles federal court that Brit's security guards confronted him on a street, waved a gun, and told him to leave the area, reports Reuters. Shizawa is seeking unspecified damages."

interesting, scary:

Radiohead Rorschach.

"When you listen to Radiohead, you're no longer actually listening to Radiohead -- you're listening to everyone's opinion about Radiohead. It's impossible to separate what you hear from what you've read. You are betrayed by what you know, and you know way too much.

Thus, in order to solicit an honest, undiluted opinion about Radiohead, you'd have to find the proverbial People Living Under Rocks. As People Living Under Rocks are unavailable, let's use fifth graders.

Specifically, Mitsi Kato's fifth-grade class at Roosevelt Elementary in San Leandro.

Mitsi has consented to a simple experiment: We will play a career-spanning selection of Radiohead songs; the kids, equipped with Sharpies and blank sheets of paper, will simply draw whatever the music suggests to them."

FiveSevenFive.

i just can't get enough haiku. like, ever.

plus, it has a nice picture of a koi, a la my tattoo.

then again, these are really cute, too.

no, i want THESE.

oooo, so 80s! of course i want them.

our receptionist just came in with a bag full of names on little pieces of paper--the annual "Santa Grab Bag" gift giving assignation. i picked out the name of someone that i...well...let's just say i have no idea what i would give her and no desire to give it to her, even if i did know. said receptionist let me put it back and pick again. she rocks.

also, the guy i carpool with was picking a name and said if he got mine, he would buy me lots of hair dye. i hope he gets me!

hehe. still so, so tired...

help meeeeeeeeee i'm falllllllllling asleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.................................

i get so tired sometimes of people not wanting to work together. i mean this in a paid-employment sense, and just in a big-picture sense. so many people are so ready to jump at every little thing anyone else says, to take every factual comment as an offensive slam. to not just say, "ok, that's what was wrong, i fixed it." to instead say, "well that may have been wrong, and it may have been my fault, but here are 5 other things that other people did wrong that will draw your attention away from the one thing i did wrong!" many people just seem to think that it's all a game of don't-blame-me, when really all it's about is all of us getting the job done.

i don't know. i've been not feeling kindly toward a lot of the human race for a couple of days now.

Ich Bin ein Berliner: German Myth #6.

but what if he was feeling like a jelly doughnut that day?

don't ask me why this little piece of useless trivia popped into my head about 15 mintues ago. i couldn't tell you.

yay Willow!

from MSN Entertainment: "Former 'Buffy' castmates Alyson Hannigan, 29, and Alexis Denisof, 37, said 'I do' over the weekend. The cutie-pie couple, who met on the set of the supernatural series in 1999 and got engaged last December, tied the knot on Sunday at the Two Palms Resort in Desert Hot Springs, CA. Even more good news for Hannigan: She just inked a deal with NBC to star in her very own sitcom in the fall of 2004."

i made this beef stew today. it is deeeeelicious. i highly recommend it, if you're ever in the mood for cooking beef stew. just thought i'd share.

i made me some money!

Sgt. Peppers 'retro' tshirt.

i want this. cause you know that Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band was the coolest movie of the 1970s. even though this site selling the shirt calls it 'one of the biggest attrocities (sic) ever commited to both film and music.' but that's a lie! a damned lie!

172 Limp Bizkit Fans Sue Over Shortened Sanitarium Set

and

Creed Fans Upset Over Sloppy Show Lose Suit But Fight On.

people suing rock stars for being rock stars. god bless america.

My Cat Hates You.

i think i have some pictures to send them. no, i *know* i have some pictures to send them.

ok though, seriously funny. i'm sitting here in my office crying from laughing so hard.

i found a GoogleWhack!

and it was...ruminating housedress. good one, no?

i am even listed in the Whack Stack, though by the time anyone actually reads this, i may be buried somewhere down in the list. but i'm number 1 right now. :)

decapitalization of E. E. Cummings.

you mean i've been writing it wrong all these years? hm.

and just because i love him so, maggie and milly and molly and may by e. e. cummings.

that Four Weddings and a Funeral poem i mentioned a couple days ago...

this page has audio and video of that guy reading it in the movie.

also, another of w.h. auden's most well-known poems, September 1, 1939, and an essay about it.

my supervisor just came in to tell me that the office today smells like 'a whorehouse on dollar day.' something about an overly-perfumy scent in the air. hehe.

my back is killing me today. actually the back of my left hip. i don't know how i'm going to stand sitting here all day. ugh.

but damn. it's friday. i have gotten so into this normal work schedule thing, i so look forward to weekends now. i feel so...mainstream.

speaking of, i came across a picture last night from when kristi and i went to chicago a few winters ago. i had fabulous, velvety pinkish/reddish hair. i think i may have to do it that color again. because compared to another picture of myself i was looking at, where my hair was sort of an auburn? yeah. normal hair sucks.

i just read something (one of those following-link-after-link-after-link things) about the movie Sliding Doors, which i saw a few years ago and think i actually liked, inasmuch as i like any romantic comedy type movie. (which is actually a lot more than i generally will admit.) but it had that cool guy who read the w.h. auden poem in Four Weddings and a Funeral in it. and yes, gwyneth paltrow, and gywneth paltrow doing her fake british accent, no less.
anyhoo, i think i will rent this this weekend, as it seems the right thing to watch while being miserable and flu-ridden.

i predict that in a day or two, i'm going to have a big honkin cold. my nose has been itching since yesterday, my eyeballs feel all watery and hot...i foresee a weekend of chicken soup and laying on the sofa in my near future. ugh.

i came up with this project for myself at work which involves reading the...well, they're sort of like case studies that are updated yearly for each of our residents. part of the thing is a questionnaire that each resident answers to the best of his/her ability. one of the questions is, "What are the things you should stay away from in order to stay healthy?" usually the answers are something along the lines of, "smoking and drinking alcohol," or, "milk makes me throw up"--things like that.

the best answer i've read yet:
When asked what he should stay away from to be healthy, he stated "traffic."

i just love what i do for a living sometimes. :)

Pictures of Monkeys!

i particularly like the one all the way on the right on the top row. file that one under, 'i think i have really seen everything on the internet now.'

"Your soul is worth £12815. For your peace of mind, 68% of people have a purer soul than you."

what's your soul worth?

NetRing: blue-eyed girl.

now i think i've seen a webring for everything...
though of course, the thought of joining this one did enter my mind for just a millisecond.

duran duran to play in atlantic city.
on november 8th.
but the question is, do i want to drive that far to see them? i mean, i do, in theory, but...in reality, not so much.
i think this is a sign that i'm getting old. very disturbing.

How Much is Inside a Sharpie? - Part 1.

i just love people who have too much time on their hands and an internet connection...

is this not the best greeting card, maybe ever?

just one more:

Willow is so darned cute. i wish i were her. or, at least, i wish i had that dress.

OH MY GOD, IT'S A CURRENT PICTURE OF RALPH MACCHIO! and i didn't even know it was him til i read the caption. more scariness.

yay, let's start off the day with MORE inane links!

something scary happened to Nicole Kidman.

not that i've ever been like a huge fan of her, but you know--she was pretty. now she's FRIGHTENING. i think so, anyway. way, way too skinny, and apparently, she's been riding the Botox train just a little too often.

SPOCK MONKEY!

i really have to post something other than inane links on here at some point, don't i.
i also have to get to bed...

Smile and Act Nice.

wow, i remember this site from way back, too, though i don't remember exactly how far back. it seems like a long time ago, like first-website-job long time ago. but i'm not sure. either way. neat stuff.

Disgruntled Housewife...i remember seeing this site years ago. it's much, much huger now, and still really cool. though don't read 'The Dick List' unless you want to get depressed, because it's just sad.

Gary Oldman in the next Harry Potter movie!
that's him over on the right--the very grungy one. as should be expected from him. can't say i love the beard, but...well, i do. cause it's gary. sigh.