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5/31/2006

How high

was Dave Grohl when he wrote This Is A Call?

fingernails are pretty
fingernails are good
seems that all they ever wanted was a marking


Yes, my days of random blogging are back. Whee!

Damn you, Starbucks!

Why is your iced coffee so tasty?

Actually, I think most any iced coffee is tasty. I just resent the fact that, while I can't stand their regular coffee, when it's put over ice with a little half-and-half, it's quite yummy. Also, their chai latte with soy milk is good. And their white chocolate mochas.

Did I mention that I'm cutting caffeine out of my diet? On recommendation of my doctor, to combat heartburn that I am starting to think is not heartburn. (What it is, I can't tell you, but I'm thinking it's not heartburn because, well, it doesn't burn. It's complicated, I'm not going to bore you with details.) I've been drinking decaf, which makes me feel very old. Soon I'm going to be one of those crones who pointedly raps her styrofoam cup on the counter and demands a free refill because she's a senior, dammit. (At least, that's what they used to do when I briefly worked at the Roy Rogers in high school, and let me tell you, it was annoying.)

But my point is, it's finally consistently hot outside, which means that it's all iced coffee, all the time for me now. Well, not all the time, because I have to limit my intake even on the decaf, so it's more like, one small iced coffee, only in the morning for me now. God, I am so old.

Did I mention I have a gray hair, too?

5/30/2006

I'm not sure how I feel about this

Johnny Depp will play Michael Hutchence in a biopic about the late INXS singer. (via Dlisted).

Now, I like Johnny Depp, and I like Michael Hutchence/INXS an awful lot (have you ever listened to Welcome to Wherever You Are? It's a perfect album, I tell you), but I'm just not sure if A)There's a real need for a biopic about Michael Hutchence, and B)Well...I guess if anyone's right for the role, it's Johnny Depp. I can't think of anyone else who might do a good job of it.

Girls suck

Why do the (very young, very fashion conscious or whatever) girls that I work with always stare at my feet when I enter the room? Especially when I'm wearing, say, my open-toe sandals like I am today? Are my toes that hideous? You know, I don't even care what they think of my toes. It just bothers me that they have to look me up and down. Yes, ok, I'm older than they are by probably ten years and half the time, I'm a bit of a mess. I'm not as hip as I used to be when I was younger and I can't just wake up in the morning and throw on whatever thrift-store dress is hanging in my closet and look fabulous like I used to (though I'm sure they'd have something to say about my former thrift store wardrobe as well). I know I shouldn't let this bother me, but come on. I don't give a rat's behind what they're wearing--why are they always looking at me like I'm wearing a trash bag dress and cereal boxes on my feet? And when I catch them I get that big fake smile...Oooh I hate that!! Makes me think that when they're being nice to me, that's all an act too. Ok, I'm going to stop now before I call them all bitches.

5/28/2006

Don't mess with the bull, young man. You'll get the horns.

Oh, crap! Principal Vernon from The Breakfast Club died! I cannot tell you what a seminal movie that was during my teenage years. Without him, the phrase, "Screws fall out all the time, the world's an imperfect place" would not have entered my personal lexicon, and my friend Lisa and I would have had a lot less to say to each other in all the notes we wrote to each other in class (meaning that most of our notes consisted of rewriting the entire movie) (yes our classes were boring in eighth grade).

Anyway, R.I.P., Paul Gleason.

5/25/2006

A nice story, for once

Last night the husband and I were grocery shopping. I had just tossed a bag of dry cat food into the cart when he said, "Oh! What is it that you used to feed them?" I had no idea what he was talking about and pointed to another dry food that I had switched them from because I thought it was making Sam the Fattest Cat Alive pukey. (I was mistaken. Apparently, being alive makes Sam pukey, not food.)

"No, not that," he said. "The stuff in the cans."

The cans? I thought. I haven't fed them canned food in...well probably over a year and a half. I stopped because A) people told me just dry food was better for them (I'm still not sold...Sam T.F.C.A still has, and I do not say this lightly, the worse breath ever to come out of any living thing's mouth, and he's still pukey, and fat...but you know, we love him anyway) and B)they seemed to not like it so much anymore (I was down to giving them a quarter of a can each per day, which they didn't even finish most of the time).

If I may speak tangentially for a moment--because I know this has been such a straightforward story so far--let me tell you that when I stopped feeding them canned food--which I used to do every morning, when I got up--one of them (I thought it was Sherry but I have reason now to believe that it may sometimes have been Sam T.F.C.A.) would sit outside our closed bedroom door (when the husband and I started living together, he mandated that they not be allowed in the bedroom, which I am fine with, because I had enough years of waking up with one or more cats sleeping literally over all my available airways) and CRY its little head off. I mean, meows like someone was dying out in the kitchen. They wanted the canned food. But I didn't give it to them, insisting that eventually, the crying would stop. It hasn't, to this day--generally it's Sherry, and she's only crying because she wants me to get out of bed and, say, go look at the closed patio door in the living room--which is actually really irritating.

Anyway. So at the grocery store last night, the husband asks which kind of canned food they'd used to eat, so I point out Friskies, with the clarification that they won't eat anything sliced/gravied/shredded/etc. He picks up two cans and puts them in the cart, and I ask what they are for. He says that since he has been home with an injury for a couple of weeks, they have been keeping him company, and he wants to give them a treat. My little heart is touched by the sentiment, though in the back of my head, I fear that we should not fool with the canned food, because they seem to have forgotten about it and perhaps, that's for the best.

But he is insistent, so we buy it. Later that night, he busts it out and gives each cat half a can. At first they seem to not even know what it is--he had to pick them up and put them next to it for them to even pay attention--but once they did? Holy crap. Sam T.F.C.A. dug right in, but he kept turning around to look at Sherry, like he was afraid she would steal it. When he was done--and he only ate half of it, which sincerely impressed me--he walked directly over to the husband, stared at him for a minute, then laid down at his feet and rolled around and purred. So freaking cute!

Sherry wolfed hers down, and while Sam was making with the warm fuzzies, she finished his off as well. She did not come over to say thank you, but she spent about five minutes sitting nearby, licking her lips. For five minutes. Seriously.

This may sound like a stupid story by a crazy old cat lady, but it warmed my heart, I tell you. Not just because I thought it was very sweet of my husband, but because the cats (Sam T.F.C.A. especially--though he does generally regard the husband as though they are best friends) actually seemed to appreciate it. Well, I mean, as much as Sherry can appreciate anything.

Shameful doesn't begin to cover it

Regarding American Idol:

"More than 63 million votes were cast, 'more than any president in the history of our country has received,' Seacrest said."

from Yahoo! News

I apologize

For yesterday's pessimistic post. I'm still tired of all that stuff (except that my eyes are doing better, though ask me about them again around three p.m.), but it's a new day, so I'm trying to have a little more perspective. Trying.

My husband said last night that I haven't been talking much lately, and I know he's right. I don't know why, I just haven't felt like I have much to say, I guess. Obviously, this is not good. Another thing I need to work on.

In the mean time, please enjoy this darling picture the husband took yesterday of baby geeses outside our apartment. The fuzzy little things are all over the place these days (including outside my office at work...26 of them at last count!) and we are just in love with them. "Babies!" we both squee when we see them. Hehe.

5/24/2006

tired

I'm tired today, despite the fact that it's beautiful and sunny outside and finally feels like spring, even though it's almost summer. My eyes are tired of staring a computer monitor, my right wrist is tired of all the mouse clicking, my brain is tired of writing other people's life stories.

My soul is tired of everything else--money problems, living in this selfish society, having no control over things that I really want to have control over, so I can make them go away. Lately it's been one mess piled on top of another, and though I thought last week that we were clawing out from under it all, I was wrong. More keeps coming. Sometimes it seems as though it will never stop.

I'm tired of people who have to have the last word and be right about everything when in reality, they're wrong about most things. Tired of people with so many transparent issues that they force on everyone else instead of taking a moment to shut the eff up and fix themselves. Tired of being one of those people from time to time. Tired of feeling like there are so many things wrong with the world that the few good things in my life just can't compare, can't make everything alright like I want them to.

Mostly I'm tired of feeling hopeless. I try to tell myself most days that there is a light that I'm working toward somewhere out there. To paraphrase something my husband said the other day, the only problem with no solution is death, and I know this; I know that money comes and goes, that most problems are transitory. I know that my good things are permanent, and for that I am thankful. But you know what I'm saying? Some days, it just seems like it would have been a better idea to stay in bed. Otherwise, you end up making weepy blog posts in the middle of the afternoon, like me.

5/22/2006

Monday boringness

Okay I finally cancelled my Yahoo web hosting account. I changed over to godaddy.com a while back because it was so much cheaper, but then (not surprisingly) I forgot to cancel the Yahoo account, so I've been paying for that too. I am a genius. So anyway, I guess since this blog is still here, it went okay. Yippee!

I've been thinking that I need to start writing more interesting things here again. I've noticed through my traffic statistics that there are other sites linking to this blog, which is awesome. (And I am going to add links to them here, too!) But now I feel the pressure to produce something good. I'm working on it!

5/10/2006

Best New Timekiller

The Stack the Cats Game. It appeals to me on so many levels. Which no, I'm not going to mention. Because many of them are sad and pathetic. Okay, all of them are sad and pathetic. Please shoot me.

5/01/2006

Eat this!

CNN.com - 'Day Without Immigrants' picks up steam - May 1, 2006: "Also Tyson Foods, the world's largest meat producer, planned to close five of nine beef plants and four of six pork plants, the AP reported. Perdue Farms plants said it would close eight of 14 facilities, according to the AP."

This is regarding today's nationwide demonstrations wherein immigrants have not gone to work. I think this is the most awesome thing I have seen in a long time. And if that thing about Tyson is a fact, that's ASTOUNDING.

People do not appreciate how much immigrants do for this country! Just think about the FOODS you would no longer be able to eat if all the immigrant farm workers were deported.

This issue has me all riled up, so my thoughts are not entirely coherent. I just find the whole thing very exciting. I sincerely hope that it opens the eyes of the average American!